Monday, April 16, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@9:52 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
Go away give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
ive never been out of my comfort zone before and now that i have, it sucks.
ever had the feeling of feeling so alone in a crowd? being lost and vulnerable?
i went to church last sunday and they were talking about welcoming new comers in the church. (wah! a REALLY good time to come huh.) and well it suddenly brought me back to the Ym days. when They were saying we should welcome newcomers and stuff, it was always I who would introduce myself and like welcome them. and now, it was the other way around! and suddenly, i felt what it was really like to be welcomed and fuck, it doesnt feel good. you are the vulnerable one, the one that subjected to people's liking.
kathi ran out of the hall because she felt so uncomfortable. and i, i was just speechless. i just didnt know how to react. it was like a culture shock and i just wasnt prepared for it. i was just all set to just sit there and just be quiet. my perfect planned out sunday morning.
sigh, i miss everything back home! ):
anyway on a brighter note,
I SAW AN ADVERT ON TV ANNNNDDDD!! PINK IS COMING TO AUSTRALIA! OMG OMG OMG, NEXT TO FALL OUT BOY, PINK IS THE NEXT AWESOME SINGER!
hahaha! SHIT! if so, im totally GOING! and i was just bobbing my head to 'leave me alone, give me a chance to miss you' song from PINK during boring maths 1!and now she's coming to australia?! oh my shit, i hope it's non other than MELBOURNE!
it's fate, it's gotta be. (:
LISTEN! WHOOHOO! i'm on the high!
GREAT ENTERTAINER, GREAT SINGER, LOVE HER CONFIDENCE. (:
FUCK! YYYEEESSSS!! (:(:(: OMG, YOU CANT IMAGINE HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW. i just cross my fingers that it wont be sold out, if not i would have to head for the black market. ): mummy can i go pleasee..!??! (:
school is getting so tiring these days. it's got to be the melbourne sloooowww spirit. and it's getting colder every day! and like by 6 it's dark already. i guess that means Winter is coming?! hahah! ive no idea how to tell, ive only been in an all summer country all my life.
i dont believe in cliche endings- much less phrases.
dear life,
this is a poem from me to you. (i didnt write it)
Love, why did you abandon me?
Busy old fool,unruly sun/why dost thou...
Die, wild country...
Stop smiling, snake, i know your plan.
Oh God, why call so late?
Blow, winds, crack your cheeks!
Leave us, Reason! You have no feelings.
I hate you, Expectation.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
