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Saturday, April 28, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@11:57 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


Could this be out of line?
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

here are the photos i promised to upload. (:

ANZ day! we had like the perfect view from belle and sem's balcony (:


PINK! only because she's so fucking hot.


we had a 'pinic' lunch by the park! how cool huh

first few days of school (:


lixxielove's owl pose

van and i - grey's anatomy and nip/tuck!

i just talked to marcus eng for 27 mins! ah, i miss acs international so damn much!

i guess this is just a small example of what acsintl really is like (: i miss you bitches!

and here's just a short clip of what my melbourne friends are like. hahah! celina is like the 'host' of the video and she's 19 by the way. hahah! taiwanese people are so cute.

okay, adding another video is really loser, but whatever. i LOVE this song. (: (:

definitely maybe - FM static
so see you latterrr (: CHEERS!

p.s if you want a really emo sad song, then listen to a lonely september by Plain White t's . Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself that you're not the one for me But the more I think, the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me You know the holidays are coming up I don't want to spend them alone Memories of Christmas time with you will just kill me if I'm on my own


♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Friday, April 27, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@5:43 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


because van tagged me (:

RULES:
Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 idiosyncracies as well as clearly state this rule. After stating your own six weirdness you need to choose six people to be tagged and list their names at the bottom of the entry.Don't forget to leave a comment on their tagboards to say you're tagged and tell them to read your blog for more information as to what it means.
Idiosyncracies means a characteristic, habit, mannerism, or the like, that is peculiar to the individual.

1. I never fail to think of him at least twice a day
2. I ALWAYS have a shower in the morning, and i cant leave without it
3. I tend to look at my phone every 2 hours without fail. It used to be worse in singapore! (same here kathi!)
4. when i am nervous, my legs involuntary shake. and when i'm REALLY nervous, i bite my nails too.
5. when i stare into space, i dont think of anything, literally. (unless there's a smile plastered on my face)
6. last time in singapore, i couldnt go past one day without at least 2 hugs. (but now, i'm coping without them)
7.( i'm going to add another one because 7 is my favourite number.) every morning, i always cling onto the hope that i can meet someone new and interesting everyday.

tag!
1. Becs
2. James
3. Priss
4. Kane
5. ANDREW PATRICK HILL
6. Ellen
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Wednesday, April 25, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@11:24 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


this will be the post of all my bottled up frustration - I LOST MY CONTACT LENSES! ALL OF THEM! OMF, I LEFT THEM IN THE RESTAURANT AND THIS IS NOT A REALLY GOOD START TO MY FRIDAY MORNING. I WOKE UP WITH A START SUDDENLY THINKING ABOUT THEM. GREAT, MY MUM IS GOING TO KILL ME ALL THE WAY FROM SINGAPORE AND LIKE SHIT! THERE'S NO ONE THAT CAN SEND IT OVER FOR ME!! I'M SUCH A IRRESPONSIBLE GIRL!!


i typed this out last wednesday.

lix and van just left our apartment. (:
ah im so sleep deprived it's crazy! and tmr i have to wake up just for ONE lecture early in the morning then i'm free from like 10.30 AM . what the hell! it's crazy man

today is NZ DAY! so in other words it means one day of PUBLIC HOLIDAY! hahah had a sleepover at sam and belle's place with the other eight and then went home at about 4 today. it was a hell lot of fun. (: hahah
there was a moment of total bliss,
that totally made me smile,
and there was a moment that just made me smile, AGAIN! hahah (:
okay basically i was just really happy. i dont know why.

celina: are you happyyy!?!?

(: (:

the rest of the day was just grey's anatomy season three day. omg, im addicted. i'm up to episode 19 and i'm sitting on the edge of my chair! SAM! BELLE! THANK YOU FOR THEM! omg, they are official lifesavers.

meredith had a near death experience, her mother died.
george is married to kelly but had sex with izzie (who is by the way so hot) and has to live with the guilt now. i think he married kelly only because his dad died and is feeling a major loss. and not to mention, Everyone just found out that kelly is like a damn rich girl! hahah comes with benefits. (:
izzie is still hung up over her dead fiance, but has sex with george and is not feeling really.. lost?
alex is still as hot as ever, flirting with like his 'boss'
AND
christina is engaged to burke.

okay, i reckon you totally just skipped that whole chunk of bullshit on grey's. but ah! i'm on the high. (: it's lack of sleep.

!!
friday night --
there's a street party that i MIGHT go, considering my mood now, i doubt i'll even make it out of my house.
saturday night--
celina's going to book a table at lavish! (: THAT is what i'm looking forward too my loves.
(either this sat or next sat)
i wana go home now melbourne.!
i miss everyone back home..
i cant come online for a while until next month because i'm going to go over my limit of internet. ah, very complicated. there's a limit of usage in college square if not, i have to pay more. OH WELLS.

♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Monday, April 23, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@8:16 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long


double accounts, one lousy period of EAP
and im done for the day tmr. (:


ive not been blogging recently, maybe because of my homesick attitude im having now.
i'm not saying im not enjoying it here now, i am. it's just that you tend to compare and well, you know which wins heads down.

i'm really sorry if i've not been myself lately . ah, ive not been myself at all recently. but yeahh, im just feeling really horrible and all inside and i'm a stubbon bitch. i hate being told what to do and how to do it. i get annoyed easily but i am trying to bring my mood down. it's just the time of the month and yeahh, my mind is crowded with things to deal with. that's why some times i may seem cold or aggitated, but really, just give me time. i'll cool off.

on saturday i met up with belle, sam, wiri and haoyu for dinner at some viet restaurant. omg, the food was A M A Z I N G. then kat and i left to meet lix, nicola and friends to go to boulevard .
i love lix. (: it was quite an interesting night i must say.

moving on,

i woke up on a sunday morning at like 730, having about only 3 maximun hours of sleep with this massive headache over-shadowing me. i had to put on a 'show' for t. molly who was going to bring us to like the countryside for some orchestra festival thing. i must say i had fun. (: getting over a hangover in a countryside was just icing. hanging out with 30 something year old people were also a change. it reminded me of my mum's friends, talking about all silly random adult talk you cant help but overhear. hahah the countryside is BEAUTIFUL. it was just so relaxing and stuff.
will upload pictures soon!
later on kat and i went to belle and sam's place again. (:
i kept to my promise man.
i'm proud of myself . hee
but at the same time, i suddenly realised what a stubbon person i am.
shucks,
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting

today:
school school school.
it was an eye opener too i guess.
i think im changing you know? i think that im becoming more quiet, i think i rather be alone most of the time and now, i rather take the backseat. i think i'm just not being myself. ah shit! wth

highlight of monday
  1. being in a lecture theatre for the FIRST time in my life. HAHHA! omg, i was like stunned la! i almost like paused at the door. amazing man.
  2. meeting lix , van and hugh for dinner! although kat and i were really totally planning to just bumm around at home, sitting in front of the tv with left-over food on our laps. i really did enjoy dinner with them (: whiee!

kat is flirting with our neighbour.HAHHA!

alter bridge - in loving memory

I carry the things that remind me of you, in loving memory of, the one that was so true

You still mean the world to me

it's just one of those weeks where i feel totally alone .


♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Saturday, April 21, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@2:37 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


dear diary,

it's a saturday and im spending my day watching grey's anatomy season three instead of going out and having fun. hahah but tonight i think i'll be going out. whiee!

last night was fun. (: another friday night you could say.we were supposed to go clubbing after dinner and drinks, but things changed.heh ah i swear, ice cream cures all cravings. hahah! the eight of us made our way down to sam and belle's house ; we ate on the floor and we played 'i never'. haha it was funn. omg, dirty little secrets.
hahah!

the body is a slave to it's impulses.but it's what we can control after the storm, after the rush, after the heat of the moment has passed. we can cool off and clean up the messes we've made. we can try to let go of what was, and then again every now again, some kind of fantasy slips in.

diary, i think the reason why i love grey's is because it reflects people's lives even though it's highly dramatic.

if you were to die today, what would you like to be remembered as?

pain hurts for a reason-
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Wednesday, April 18, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@11:58 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


Yesterday:

i felt really loser just now. i was so bored and so yet so full of energy that i just started talking to the TV! wtf! hahah extreme makeover is REALLY stupid and disgusting. i was like commenting my way throughout the show TO NO ONE! shit, im such a loser. hahah! it must have been the chocolate overload. ):

though lix came over! (: that girl, it was so fun! hahah we like cooked dinner and stuff, then like just had girl talk all the way. silly lix was doing up her xanga and i just turned to the tv while kat and her were dunno- doing what. HAHA!
lix is gona have her stretching later on tonight. HEH

kathi is such a cam whore now, she's over taking me. i dont know why, i hate using the camera these days. joy to the world - maybe because im looking like shit these days and i really cant be bothered to smile for the camera. im beginning to be such a pessimist. it's really bad. i was going to post pictures up, but i decided i'll do it next time.

i actually planned on studying tonight, but i guess that didnt happen. i spent my day just sleeping. gahh! tmr i have to practice my mime with shaun! ): i HATE acting,it's the one thing i just cant stand compared to like everything else in the world.

i miss my world!! ): i shall stop mopping around and stop popping oh so delicious tiny teddies into my mouth to curb my mouth watering cravings. AH! someone save me AND my body (if possible!)

okay, i shall send out three shoutouts :

1. ha ha, if you wana go with someone who's like a tramp and is SO disgusting looking then be my guest. i obviously didnt miss out on much if so. you're definitely lowering your standards day by day i see. (fuck im such a bitch. slap her! she's french! bitch !)

2. argh! im tired of thinking of you and what you say. so please, i need a break. i'm not mad at you and yeahh, that's all. just give me some time . i dont believe in long distant relationships, and im glad you're starting to see it my way.

3. you do mean alot to me you silly nerd.
dont judge me.
today:

i'm in school now using one of their 1000000s mac computers for free. yay! the world is good again.
ah fuck, im so angsty now. it has not a really good day for me today. i was rudely waken up by a phone call from KATHI saying that felicity(one of the admin people) was looking for me. apparently it was for my attendance. and shit, just on that day i HAD to just skip maths 1 too. ): so screw me. hahah ! got into bigger shit and BLEAH, got into this BIG scolding and now i cant miss anymore tutorials or lectures
if not, bye bye melbourne, hello again singapore.
i'll be like DEPORTED BACK to singapore. HAHAH how retarded but true. SIGH there are three pairs of identical twins here now. how amazing. all the twins unite! hahah and like all the same age? how awesome is that. but too bad, we're all girls.
im really having a really bad mood swing! ):

hours later...

i reached home and fell asleep. and when i woke up, i had this unforgivable craving for ice cream! omg, and so i went out in my SPECS and home clothes to grab some icecream. yes yes, the embarrassment of being SO overly underdressed- it's unsightly. it's like walking past MOS in your pjs. uh huh. that's right. HAHA so anyway, when kat and i were walking back, mummy called and she started nagging at us, as usual. heh i love her.

when i told her what i was wearing, she said : "ahiyoi, can you not be so underdressed?! even if it's just down the block, just dress up nicer a bit sometimes. you never know, you might meet your future husband.. and ARE YOU PREGNANT?! why do you have such weird cravings in the night! next time do it in the day!"

RIGHT mum.. hahah! i'm sure that one of the thousand of drunkards down my street will be my future husbands. and NO?! im not pregnant?! HAHAH! wth
my mummy is so cute.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Tuesday, April 17, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@8:29 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


i did my vaccumming! ah, okay a FEW days ago i did it.

now my place is getting messier and messier. ): AGAIN!
im going to faint in this mess.

i cant find my money! ):

i missed my accounts lecture this morning AGAIN. ah, i cant wake up to the stupid alarm clock. all my life, it has been my maid who has been waking me up and now it's an alarm clock! gahh, i wana pout. and then kat and i skipped our maths 1 lecture to go home to sleep .

lix and van came over! (:

really bad bad photos. ): so i wont post them, except one of van eating her grapes. heh james, if you know what i mean. HAHAH
emme-voice of truth says:
hahahah i thought you said you were a van! stationary van!
hahaha something going on with you and chemistry hottie? -wink

kristi says:
HAHH!
omg, TODAY he SANG the TELLIETUBBIES SONG !

emme-voice of truth says:
hahahah i am so saying he sang you a love song!!
emme-voice of truth says:
HAHAH!

this is LIZ impersonating my other sister's account AGAIN. AH! tell me again why im always being bullied by other people?! (: i love you LOVEABLE LIZ! -winks! you have no life babe.


♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Monday, April 16, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@9:52 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


Go away give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here

ive never been out of my comfort zone before and now that i have, it sucks.
ever had the feeling of feeling so alone in a crowd? being lost and vulnerable?

i went to church last sunday and they were talking about welcoming new comers in the church. (wah! a REALLY good time to come huh.) and well it suddenly brought me back to the Ym days. when They were saying we should welcome newcomers and stuff, it was always I who would introduce myself and like welcome them. and now, it was the other way around! and suddenly, i felt what it was really like to be welcomed and fuck, it doesnt feel good. you are the vulnerable one, the one that subjected to people's liking.
kathi ran out of the hall because she felt so uncomfortable. and i, i was just speechless. i just didnt know how to react. it was like a culture shock and i just wasnt prepared for it. i was just all set to just sit there and just be quiet. my perfect planned out sunday morning.
sigh, i miss everything back home! ):

anyway on a brighter note,

I SAW AN ADVERT ON TV ANNNNDDDD!! PINK IS COMING TO AUSTRALIA! OMG OMG OMG, NEXT TO FALL OUT BOY, PINK IS THE NEXT AWESOME SINGER!

hahaha! SHIT! if so, im totally GOING! and i was just bobbing my head to 'leave me alone, give me a chance to miss you' song from PINK during boring maths 1!and now she's coming to australia?! oh my shit, i hope it's non other than MELBOURNE!
it's fate, it's gotta be. (:

LISTEN! WHOOHOO! i'm on the high!
GREAT ENTERTAINER, GREAT SINGER, LOVE HER CONFIDENCE. (:


FUCK! YYYEEESSSS!! (:(:(: OMG, YOU CANT IMAGINE HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW. i just cross my fingers that it wont be sold out, if not i would have to head for the black market. ): mummy can i go pleasee..!??! (:

school is getting so tiring these days. it's got to be the melbourne sloooowww spirit. and it's getting colder every day! and like by 6 it's dark already. i guess that means Winter is coming?! hahah! ive no idea how to tell, ive only been in an all summer country all my life.

i dont believe in cliche endings- much less phrases.

dear life,

this is a poem from me to you. (i didnt write it)

Love, why did you abandon me?

Busy old fool,unruly sun/why dost thou...

Die, wild country...

Stop smiling, snake, i know your plan.

Oh God, why call so late?

Blow, winds, crack your cheeks!

Leave us, Reason! You have no feelings.

I hate you, Expectation.


♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Sunday, April 15, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@11:04 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


mich said that i was pissed off with her in like sec two because she said that me and my (then) boyfriend didnt look good together. (totally true by the way) . HAHAH! and like i ignored her and she got pissed at me. HAHAH!

MICH! i dont even remember that! omg, but anyway i was young foolish and CHILDISH (!!), i didnt know THEN that friends are way more important then guys. HAHAH! i know better now. (: always and forever huh! heh
relationships come and go, but friendships are forever.

so anyway, i went to church this morning and t. molly, kat and i were introduced to these two amazingly --- guys. HAHAH! one was a undercover japanese moviestar (the cute cute type by the name of Ryan) and the other was by the name of jeromy. How Cool. HAHAH but Oh Wells, we're church surfing now and this Road Block isnt gona stand in our way.. hee

so then went home to take a nap before meeting mich and rim for dinner at nandos! i thank God for creating chickens. heh they live to make me happy. i LOVE to eat chicken! heh more than all the other meats out there. heh much gossiping and love.
(ripped the photos off mich! )
headed down to safeway for some groceries before going to wiri's house for apple crumble! it's super yummy i swear. he BAKED it okay! WOAH, im impressed.
at wiri's place

i should learn from him one day . i learnt how to make t. molly's soup already! whiee! Go ME!

after ugly betty and grey's anatomy , kat and i decided to go back down home because we realised that we have not completed our EAP paragraph essay yet. (!!)
so yeps! and well, here i am now.
dedicated to all you friends out there. i miss you guys. (:
oh and on one last note- im an izzie! (Yes!)

♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Saturday, April 14, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@3:32 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


i feel like blogging- last night i was really down because drinking again made me remember how i felt when i was - heartbroken.
hell, im going to be all fucking sappy again.. ): i hate it!
i just read jiezhen's tagboard and ONE part settled my heart to a certain extent i guess.

at least he kept his word. on that night, he told me that he would not enter a relationship with another girl anymore because he just keeps fucking up. and he doesnt want to cause .. sadness (?) ... dont wana continue .

i dont know what is going on in his life right now, but yes he is a great guy but just really really confused. he has a really big heart, and an awesome friend. (well i hope so, we technically never really were just friends)

he is the guy i gave my whole heart to,
he is the guy that made me smile,
he is the guy that also broke my heart.
but he is also the guy that tried to patch it back.
and he is also the guy i will always be there for.

he is was and always will be a part of me.
and my fucking 2007

he's not been mentioned here in a really long time but this will be the last time he will be mentioned here.

bye bye love.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Last footprint@10:00 AM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


my days are numbered,
i woke up with a splitting headache today but my ipod help- a bit.



last night was so fun! okay, i still remember the word wiri! it's MACARONNI! (is that how it is spelt?)hahah hell, that word was running through my mind constantly all night, how could i forget?! idiot.


anyway, kat and i WERE supposed to cook for a few people , but the few people turned into like 10 people! HAHAH! and well, at the end of the night i didnt do any cooking at all because rim took over. everyone was saying that they would get food poisoning and they didnt want to die because of my cooking. omg, rejection hurts.. hahah! HELLO?! ive not even started cooking yet! but well, everyone had a good time i reckon. heh (: i love my apartment now! it's amazingly clean and nice. the guys stayed back after EVERYTHING to clean up okay! hahah omg, and here i thought the guys were the messy ones. NOT TRUE! they are like clean freaks la- most of them . heh




so then we all went out into the night and whiee! (: shall not elaborate. i refused to take pictures after that.



people were looking at us as if we were like crazy or something.HAHAH! say no to drinking wiri ! (:




celina! she can like drink three vodka bottles (like the huge ones) and still be totally sane- hats off to her boys. (:

i remember not being able to sleep and i was wandering around the halls again. ): i convinced myself i shouldnt look for company and just go to bed and TRY to sleep. kat was sleeping like a pig and i had no one! sigh, Everyone was sleeping. cheh!


i hugged my elmo to sleep last night . (:
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Thursday, April 12, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@9:37 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


/edited

missing- michelle lim! (:

i HAVE to find PUTRA! his songs are AMAZING. hahah (:
I LOVE YOU PUTRA! YOU AND YOUR SEXY SONGS. WHIEE!
currently listening to: idiot- 71 gaps , i dont wana stop - good charlotte

i have not laughed as much ever since i came to melbourne until last night. (:
okay, if every night was like that i wouldnt mind it that much. haha

so rim kat and i were on the way down to rim's place cause she said she was going to cook dinner for us that night but on the way we bumped into wiri! (a cook in disguise!) and so we like dragged him to like rim's place for him to cook for us. but then he said that he had to cook for houyou as well! so we all just went to his place so he could cook for all of us. hahah! Omg, it was awesome. (: food makes the world go round. heh

then wiri, aza, rim, houyou, yond, kat, jason and i went to have gelato at this really famous place. Hmm, i really NEED to save money. i'm so low on cash now!! omg, help help help! hahah
sanjo si oth!

(: if you know what i mean.

oh oh! i brought elmo out! hahah (: omg, he was so cute i swear, he's MINE! heh

i decided to drop econs and take up accounting instead. let my mathematical brain take it all in..
*helpp..!

i met JERILYN today! (: that silly girl is in melbourne now! hahah as usual, she was still in bed at like THREE! and her phone died-ed in the train so she had to use the PAY PHONE to call us. hahah! we were so worried!
we had a Romantic take out dinner in the QV square. jerilyn i want photos!

love is only a feeling, The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand 'Cos you came at a time When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall Was the be all and end all

i took care of my apartment AT LAST. i CLEANED UP! hahah okay, after living in a messy place for like a week, kat and i finally cleaned up. maybe because of EVERYONE'S appalling faces when they saw our place. hahah! they were like OMG, YOU DIRTY PEOPLE! hahah okay, yes it was that bad. im sorry! but now you can see the carpet! heh and we even put up some photos! i washed the dishes, did my laundry, took stuff off the couch and cleaned the floor! okay, GO me. heh


here is my wall! it's half done, soon there will be more photos up! (:

i will see kane everyday before i leave my apartment, he and his 'appalled' face. hahah!

boy, you are my love. (: the last sports day at acs international i didnt know i would have

i cant remember where i got this photo. it was so long ago . haha

letting go is my life, i'll be on my way



the night before my damn hangover on my last night in singapore. hahah WHIEE! fun fun fun


i did this mini thing when i was so bored. hahah i'll be better at collages! i promise! (:
hey, ive got plenty time now.

and tommorrow will be better than yesterday
cause i miss you and i miss you
forget about me- 71 gaps

liz starting from scratch/ says:
hahaha okay miss me long long!Q
i will only come visit at like..NOVEMBER!! hahaha
you better clean up your shit before i arrive!

kristi says:
HAHAH!
idiot.
I WILL!
and i did already!
i packed up my place just now!
hahah im so proud of myself.
you should have seen me.like a VACCUMM CLEANER! hahah!

liz starting from scratch/ says:
hahaha kristi the speedy car turning into a vacuum cleaner?
heh. nice...improvement. HAHAHA
this is why i love my sister, LIZ! silly girl, always out to insult me. hahah i miss you love!
p.s. liz says im a speedy car because that's how she views my relationships. HMPH! i'll show you what a stationary truck really is liz.
http://-vintagelove.blogspot.com/ this is her blog, dedicated to none other but ME! (:

♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Wednesday, April 11, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@12:11 AM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


im stealing music from my neighbour yet again. putra, you have Good music. (: and i love you for that. heh
currently listening to: again i go unnoticed- dashboard confessional.
below lyrics: ender will save us all-dashboard confessional

i guess ive been pretty cynical about melbourne. a friend just mentioned that i sound as if im sour about everything, so ive decided to have a new pespective about my environment


I WILL LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT MELBOURNE!
in time to come. (:

today was a H O T day. it was almost like singapore but just not humid. i guess that's the good part about it. heh i had to go for my medical checkup today. and i had to like strip to my bra and pantie for the doctor. i felt so visually violated! but Hmm, it was just for a minute and he IS a doctor.. thank God kathi was with me. heh i hate trusting people now. not worth the betrayal.
i had to pee in a cup

It's hard to explain how I am getting by on so little from you.


i had so many lectures today as well. and i almost died in Maths 2. i dont know why im taking higher maths when my maths is not That great. maybe cause i wana do acturial studies in university and make Huge Money when i grow up. but just thinking about the work load already makes me groan. ):


It's hard to believe that I would let myself get so wrapped in you.


i'm a changed woman! omg, kat and i like walked SIX blocks UP hill from the city to our apartment with our bags and groceries. JUST to save $3.20 each for the tram fare. omg, i feel so good with myself. i saved money! hahah (: daddy daddy! i can actually see him trying to laugh now la. hahah!


There's got to be something that would be worthwhile for me to give to you.


and so i screwed up my potato salad for van today. ): gosh, the stupid egg wouldnt turn HARD BOILED. i mean, it's SUPPOSED to be the easiest. but it wasnt. it wouldnt cook! hahah! and so the potato salad turned to be a disater. but still, we went to van's place for dinner. hahah STEAK! it was.. okay. good effort i must say. we watched BORAT! okay loser as this may sound, it was my first time watching it! hahah good timess good timess. :D

she was awfully supportive of our potato salad though. heh even so, we threw away almost the whole thing..heh


We need a connection but you seem to push me far away from you.


my daddy and mummy are the sweetest people alive! (: they bring joy to my life i swear. they know i A D O R E surprises and they gave me one! hahah and a really cute one too! okay so jerilyn was our 'for the day porter" (thanks babe! ) and so she delieved a bag full of our supposedly forgotten books. (you see, we didnt pack ANY books because kat and i werent thinking of what we were going to need for studies but what we were going to wear. so that was the trouble. haha) and when i open it, i squealed in delight! i saw.. ELMO! HAHAH!


okay, is that sweet or what?! hahah my mummy knows me too well. she knows that i have had a crush on elmo ever since i was a kid. hahah
whiee!
my parents make me a happy kid! (:
THANK YOU MUMMY AND DADDY!

♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Sunday, April 08, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@11:12 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..



this is why i miss acs international so damn much! ): sigh, i want the fun back! gahh

australia is a screwed up country. every damn shop closes on a public holiday and it closes at FIVE EVERYDAY. students, what's the point of having a holiday when there's NOTHING TO DO! omg, kill me. singapore is such a better country. this is a shithole- it's down under. ARGH!

And everytime that i hear someone laugh, it sounds just like you

okay, i need to go shopping again. hahah!


there's a show called 'cheaters' now on tv. and it's such a fucked up show! they treat cheating as entertainment. i mean, wtf! firstly cheating on another party is such a sensitive topic and they catch the other party like having sex on the floor and stuff and like stick it in the victim's face. i mean, how the hell are you supposed to handle that?! and they ask you stuff about how you feel and all?! i mean, HELLO!? your fucking boyfriend/girlfriend/fiance is like fucking on the floor, what do you expect me to feel?! and they like go catch them red handed having it on and stuff.. okay, i was like this is just plain disgusting.


since when did 'cheating' become entertainment.
it's just wrong.

one special shoutout:

andrew, i miss youu! hahah i miss messing up your hair, i miss just making your life hell. hahah! ANDREW! hope you're doing fine. (: so no one has replaced my place of irritating you? hahah! i promise i'll take my place once i get back! HAHHA! i know you love me. (:

i realised that the last person i hugged when i left was marcus phooi! hahah i didnt realise it until i got on the plane. bleah, at that point in time, i didnt even think who i would want to hug the last. i was thinking who i have not hugged yet. and i saw marcusphooi like standing behind the crowd and i was like Oh! i've not hugged him yet . and so i did. hahah! well, im glad i did my friend. stupid phooi

in my heart, i know whom i would have loved to hug last. sigh

armour for sleep - it sounds like a nice band. once again, im stealing music from my neighbours. teehee (: a bit whiny but still good. PRISS! i know you're raising your eyebrows now. heh (: kind of perfect.

i was such a bum today. we woke up late so we didnt go to church. so kat and i explored the neighbourhood and had thai food! heh (: that's about it. Every shop was CLOSED. i cant emphasis this any more, it's really pathetic. i really wonder how people survive here, because i cant. even safeway was closed. i couldnt get my steak!! ):

i know i have mine.

i still go silent whenever i hear butch walker sing. his lyrics are amazing and his voice is of an angel.

i laid my eyes on you, not knowing it was for the last time.

Cause I can't live if you're not happy

I can't live if you cry,

But I can live without you if it makes you smile


♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Friday, April 06, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@7:56 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


06 april 2007
" i closed my eyes and i saw millions of dresses and they kept changing!"
in a really awful bimbo accent.
hahah! this blond girl was sitting opposite me in the tram today and i couldnt help but over hear her conversation. apparently she took the perp pill last night. HAHAH! okay, i am shocked.

I CANT FIND THIS REALLY IMPORTANT SHEET OF PAPER! omg, im stressing OUT right now. i seriously cant get any good work done without it. . ahh! save me please. im getting really frustrated. the apartment is SO messy, it's like a hurricane just went through it. sigh, i have to find it later.. no matter what. i think it's in one of the many bags on the floor.. ):

chicken wings
salad
viet noodles
spring rolls
SOUP!
cheese
bread spreads
crackers
...

that is just some of the MANY things i ate today. im having a mid life crisis- im getting fat!
im going under depression soon i swear.


the ghost town ( on good friday)
today
all my subjects are based on MATHS and i didnt bring a calculator. congrats kristi. im so damn stupid!
"Making the decision to have a child- it's momentous.
It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body"
Elizabeth Stone
i read someone's blog that is actually really interesting. i guess that's why it's so hard for women to have babies. i mean, who wants their heart to be walking outside of their body. it's a damn scary thing cause it can be gone in any minute.
whoever said life was meant to be easy is a liar. because it's not. it's full of it's ups and downs and right now, im at my downs.
i'm a happy girl! i went SHOPPING !! okay, it's true about what they say about retail therapy. it works miracles. met up with rim and mich and wow, i just LOVE melbourne shopping. that's maybe only One of the Highlights about melbourne. the only good thing melbourne will ever do for my body is Maybe tonner legs? i swear, the rest of my whole body is GONE. i'll be so fucking fat because of the stupid cold! so now, im gona make sure i curb my eating.hahah!
i can do it! (:
mich, rim and us sat out in the cold drinking our chilled starbucks coffee. OMG, stupid thing to do. hahah! we were like shivering in our panties! ):

then at 5 (when all the shops CLOSED, sigh) , kat and i met van to go to safeway! hahah i miss van! she's gona be making us dinner tmr night! she'll cook steak and we'll be preparing potato salad. HAHAH! no promises it'll be good. (: so it means we'll have to go to the supermarket tmr again! i LOVE that place. it's always interesting. heh
this is my brother trying to act cool in ikea. hahah!
my 1st doll edition of james lu! (:

♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Thursday, April 05, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@11:20 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


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HAHAHA! hello slut kim. honestly, now i know WHY i really didnt like her from the start. GOSH, trying to take over the school? please, let me try my best not to roll my damn small eyes at you. but i had to, i couldnt help it. surprise surprise it's slut kim. now that im not in school anymore i can bitch all i want.

the only reason why like we 'stopped' is because you pulled the trump card on us- ms loh. a clever move for a small brain of yours. wait, we didnt even start! my god, if anything it was you who started it first.

so if you wana be the mcpopular in school, then well you can dream on. God, i thought you were smarter than that. you surprise me. jealousy? please, give me a kitkat. isnt that thinking a bit too highly of yourself?

"and the cliques at skool are really decreasing. ours isnt tho (yesssss) but the tall table crew is dwindling. badly. which is good for our group i guess. seeing as theres like a mutual hate relationship."
hahah! im sure you know what 'dwindles' in your life means. even if the group is smaller, size doesnt matter, havent you realised that already?! argh, you piss me off.you're so dumb!
you should feel honoured, one whole post dedicated to you! wow, you REALLY piss people off.

ah, okay i thought i was so over this whole thing like MONTHS ago. but after reading her blog, i got so pissed off. she got us into trouble with ms loh, and even so we didnt like tell her about it and all and just kept to ourselves and like just cant be bothered with her anymore, then SHE comes and say all these things?! i mean HELLO?! sure slap me. i'm sorry, not many people can be bothered about you you know. you make my tummy sick.

i wana be back in school! fuck! I MISS EVERYTHING! i heard the johor trip was awesome and full of drama! shit, my life is bland now . i acutally Hate it here. AUSTRALIA, shit. i hope i dont get some slutty accent like - . i have all the freedom i wanted back in singapore and now, i have nothing to do with it. the malls close at 5 and it becomes a ghost city and there's NOTHING to do! also cause it's really cold so everyone rushes back to their blankets. SIGH, i need some entertainment please?


I FEEL SO ANGST NOW!

im starting to feel homesick. i need a hug.. ive not had one nice loving hug for like 4 days already? SIGH,

i do love you too . but im telling you this, and listen hard. i dont want you leaving her for me. you and i both know that she can make you happier than i ever can so dont, dont be a fool for love; not again, not yet. i'm in a shithole called australia and you're 187287532 miles away. i never believed once in long distant relationships. sigh
you make me happy
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


Wednesday, April 04, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@9:05 PM

Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..


i am currently stealing music from some random neighbour in college square,
now playing: born to make you happy- brintney spears
eng, i know you love this song. hahah! you're the only guy out there that i know that would admit loving britney when they were young. hahah!
sexy.

today i had scavenger hunt! it was damn fun! and i must say it helps alot with the cool weather. imagine running around without sweating! hahah! so yeahh, this is all new to me so - cheap thrill!
i skipped my accounts lecture today.. ): for SLEEP! gosh, im a pig! i sort of regret it now.. bleah,

i got SO many classes tmr.. save me! maths 2, maths 1, then econs. i swear im gona be so mathematical now. ALL my subjects that im taking are MATHS. gosh. go kristi (:

met lix , john and van for dinner again and we went to PANCAKE PARLOUR! hahah gosh, the name of the restaurant just says it all. FAT FAT FAT! hahah then i found my heaven.
THIS ORIENTAL SUPERMARKET! i have no idea how van found it but she did. it's called LAGUNA, omg the supermarket is SOOO COOL! hahah! okay the thing about me is that i love to shop in supermakets. i can spend HOURS in it just thinking and choosing what i wana cook for dinner and shit like that, but the thing is at the end of it all, i wouldnt cook and it would just end up in my freezer. hahah! i would buy everything and like end up throwing it away. ):
that's me.

i found another aqeel! im so happy now. hahah! whiee!
my room number (:

the day at ikea. we did an reanactment of SHUMEI! (: i miss you crazy!


lix and van. (i'll post more photos soon! stupid computer doesnt allow pop ups now so i cant open my 'downloand photos link! ): )


some of the girls in our april intake class! (:
we might be going to a strawberry farm on saturday! ooo! so fun! heh

♥ Love, your pathetic excuse


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