Thursday, July 28, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@8:44 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
ah. tmr is the 29th. hahah! its gona be our 6th month anniversary.gosh. so long.. sighh.. dont know what to do with my life. all i know is that i want a new haircut. and well i will get it. no one is gona stop me, like my mum.oh wells..i want a new kind of life. i dont know in what way, but i just want something different.sigh.. i think i lack surprises. my life is like getting boring to really boring. anyways, today me kathi debbie and sarina just called ourselves
the plastics! hahaha!
kristi: regina george
kathi: karen[ the stupid one]
debbie: grechin [the one that knows everything]hahah! sorry dont know how to spell.
sarina: caddy [ lindsey lohan]
hahah! yupps. havent chosen who will be our aaron samuels. but soon soon. heh must be good-looking, tall and older than us.hahah!
sigh.. dont know why at the end of today i felt so depressed/moody.its like.. its not the same anymore. i dont know why.i guess its because i lost feelings for you? i guess you wouldnt know that, because i mean you seldom visit my blog and all. i think you visit her blog more than mine. hahah how ironic is that. oh wells..sighh..i am so confused.one minute i know that i do, and the next minute i dont. its like youre here, but not really here. get it? its like you would rather be somewhere else. its like, you would rather hang out with other people than me.its like i'm not important to you anymore.sighh..and its like you make fun of me like way too much even though its just in the joking way. like you do things to me to let other people laugh at me.i dont know.. i guess you have changed.oh wells.. see how it goes.hahaha i dont think you will even read this entry until maybe a month later.oh wells..i dont know.
is this falling apart?
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
Tuesday, July 26, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@9:58 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
hello! gahh. today was an okay day.nothing much happened.oh yeah i got back my chemistry paper. gahh! i failed.10 upon 30. it wasnt that bad. just that KATHI got higher than me! hahah! kidding dear.i love you.hahah! was so sad la. but didnt show it, didnt want to. oh wells.. it was so bullshit. but but but! hahah i knew how to do the ionic equations. hee. :]
then we had PE. omg. we had to like run our trial 2.4 km run. and like i ran about 600 meters or less than that and i almost fainted! oh my goodness! it was like oh shit. hahah! i was like wait for me! hahah! kept laughing la. oh wells.i suck. i cant run at all. but then again, i went back home to swim! haha! swimming is so much better than running. swimming makes you have a nicer body. hahah! running doesnt do any good. hahah!
oh oh! and today i saw my mum is school! i was so super shocked okays! cause she was doing some stuff and so i was like walking down the corridors on level three and i looked down to the court yard. and then i saw this goup of adults, three people, they were like discussing about something la. then i saw someone that looked like my mum, cause of what she was wearing. i said to myself, that is just like what my mother wears! hahah! then i saw her hairstyle, then i was like, omg. that is so like mary jane. hahah! dont know why mary jane, guess its because in the movies mary jane is like always the type of... duh people. hahah! then when the woman turned around i had a shock of my life la! i was like AHHHHHH! hahaha! THATS MY MUM! heh . it was hilarious.oh wells..
debbie is too thin!heh
cant take this anymore soon.
somebody please save me. :(
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
Sunday, July 24, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@7:13 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
I LOVE DEBBIE!
omg. she is such a dear. hahah! here is a rip of what debbs sent to me! hahah
heys dear! haha i'm super bored now,
just went through your blog nd realise you
want the lyrics for midnight highway. hahah here it is (:
LOVE YOU! byebye.
midnight highway ; daphne love derby.
Your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,
This idle hour just wont pass
I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,
Didn't think you'd feel so far away
Your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway,
Autumn's amber red shadows dance
I miss our midnight rides on highway 18, 18 is gone
So go past the lights and all the excuses
You could have left "sincerely yours"
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
Cause anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away
So you never realize, I'm here
I'm thinking of your vague reply
So I can understand
Why we put this at rest
Why we forget to
Say that we were leaving
Say that we were sorryT
he past remains unspokenA
s this vacant night is dying
But I still miss your summer perfume
This cold air brings such a distance to us
Such a painful distance
I'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now
So I don't have to hold on to this burning heart
This burning heart is getting old
While sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've finally realized that you were never meant for me
I LOVE DEBBIE GAN MING RUI!<3 :]
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
♥
Last footprint@12:42 AM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
okay this whole post is gona be dedicated to ISAAC LIM! better appreciate it man. hahah
you became just a friend,
then a accidental friend,
then a close friend,
then a very close friend,
then a STALKER!
hahah! kidding.heh
what did we do together as friends.
we celebrated new years day together!
we sat on sentosa beach late at night.
then we had to walk back alone..[so scary!]
almost saw a ghost. sat and talked under the stars on the sand!
the one and only that saw me cry for youknowwho first.
saw the police coast guard patrolling the seas at night
you introduced me iain teh.
you counciled me when i was down.
gahh cant remember anymore. hahah! oh wells. all in all he has been a GREAT friend! a friend to be treasured forever. heh loveyou!
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
Saturday, July 23, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@10:27 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
hey! gahh listening to this song now, midnight highway. so super nice. hahah but i cant find the lyrics. boo. hahah! oh wells.. guess i'll have to talk to her on monday.hahah serious. dont be scared of me. i'm not like a monster in this body.hahah oh wells..
i love paul frank! heh
but i need to change somethings in this blog. but i dont know how. so i guess this is where EVAN comes in! hahaha! thank you evan ong! hee. i will owe you for life man. hahah
my parents are coming back tmr morning. there goes my slack days. hahah but i miss them! heh actually i miss their nagging the most man. hahah funny. oh wells..
i love them . hahah
and i love YOU! heh
so bored.. bored to shit.
missin you always baby.iloveyou
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
Wednesday, July 20, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@11:28 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
you played with my heart and my feelings today.
what more can i say?
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
Monday, July 18, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@7:56 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
HELLO! hahah! well.. today was much better. heh.
THANK YOU SARINA! for making my smile. heh loveyou shitloads dear. heh :]
oh shit. i have cracked lips! hahaha! its so awful. feels awful too. okay. 10 gallons of water for me tonight. hahah! shit. tmr i have admaths test. and goodness! my mum is getting naggy. hahah! she just screamed at me saying that i have something that i'm not telling her. hahah! like duh! heh with the way you are asking me of course i wont tell you. hahaha! sighh..
today, that brat james was bullying me for the WHOLE of bio. goodness.so awful. JAMES LU! you better buy me another blanko. [or however you spell it.] hahah! and he made me fall off my chair okay! sighh.. ask mich. it was so unglam.so awful! hahaha!
oh wells. loveyou!
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
Sunday, July 17, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@7:03 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
letting go is the hardest thing to do.sigh.
i guess its all about the time.
no one is perfect. i'm not perfect. and i can never be perfect. but i'm trying. and i feel that its not fair to me to be the only one trying.
the only one trying to keep this alive.
dont you want this to work still?
why is it all my fault and none of yours?
why should breaking up be based on my attitude towards you.
has it really gone down the drain just like that?
have you done nothing that hasnt hurt me before?
dont i have a chance to be angry?
dont i have a chance to express my feelings?
dont i have the right to be angry?
dont i get another chance?
what is love to you?
is love just a word that means nothing?
love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.it always protects, always trust, always hopes, always persevers. love never fails. 1 corinthians 13: 4-8
is that our love?
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
Saturday, July 16, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@10:36 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
there are times in life where you just have to pick yourself up
and carry on with life.
yes, life wont be the same
but it will be different.
there are times in life where you love a person,
yet you have to let him go.
yes, life wont be the same,
it will never be.
but it will be different.
there are times in life where you have to block out all the pain and hurt
and carry on with life.
yes, life wont be the same
but it will be different.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
♥
Last footprint@4:38 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
hey! gahh at last i fixed my blog. hahah! its still a bit..plain. but oh wells i cant do the stupid html.
my life is screwed. everyone is leaving me.gahh.last night i cried myself to sleep and now my eyes are super swollen. even my mum and dad asked me what was wrong.oh wells.. dont wana say it here.but the person who caused it should know.oh wells..i feel totally depressed now. i feel like throwing up. i hate my life. its disgusting. even i am disgusted with my own life.depression. somebody please save me.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
