Friday, February 16, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@2:26 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
it broke my heart to be away from you.yesterday was definitely not one of my best days. i hated everything, i hated to smile and say that i was fine. but i knew i had to.
i gave my phone to eng to help me keep. so i wouldnt do anything stupid with it.
thank you guys for being there for me. especially marcus eng, nic pua, priss, kathi and so much more. it really made a huge difference yesterday.
marcuseng and nicpua were so sweet. it started raining, and we just finished econs. and
nic said: kris kris! let's go play in the rain! ( this is coming from a guy that has Never played in the rain before)
I said: are you serious?! dont wantt..then we'll get all wet.nic: no no! lets go!marcuseng: yes yes! come on kristi. you have to go.and so i went. and in the rain,
marcuseng said: we're doing this hoping that it'll cheer you up, cause we all know how much you love playing in the rain. you touched my heart you guys! (: the first genuine smile i gave that day.
so then i went home to bathe and change to meet kane and juncai. Hmm, those guys never fail to make me laugh. even though it's always an insult about me. cheh! then jerilyn and ivan dropped by. i love you too jerilyn! even though you're such a bitch, i cant believe you called me a - . gosh and i couldnt eat properly because cai and kane kept looking at me eat. ): i cant eat with people staring at me eat! gahh. then kane cai and i went to cine to watch the protoge. (is that how you spell it) well anyway, it was Good. i thought it would suck at first because it is a Chinese movie. but it was acutally not bad. it was a sad kill movie about drugs and all and Sigh was that appropriate . there were a few scenes i had to cover my eyes because it was so scary, this dead girl was just lying on the couch with blood dripping down her mouth and whats more, with rats all over her body. AH, it was awful.
why do people take drugs? it's because of the emptiness they feel inside of them.
there were many times i just wanted to break down in school, and just cry . my head was pounding i had to take panadol, secretly hoping that it'll ease this aching pain in my chest; but it didnt. i hate taking medicine, especially stuff like that. but i couldnt take it. my eyes were swollen, and i just didnt have any motivation to do anything. i was the depressed girl,
why did you have to do it? cant you see, i'm only happy when you're with me. i dont wana be just friends, i wana be more; if it means that i have to wait for you to change or whatever, then i will. i'll wait for you. we'll see jeremy. i love you so damn much
tootag replies:
anon: im too lazy to reply to a person who cant even spell YOU properly. but i do know that im stupid for letting him go.
anonymous: just be there for him? i dont know how but i think he should be better now that we've talked?
james: !! cheh! see what you did! hahah if im not wrong, i got much higher than you in English and in Literature. hahah but i think i need to remember how to spell again. i suck .
jinwei: hey you. i hope he's okay now.
camille: hello! happy valentines day too! have fun in the states dear!
kane: you! you have So much money in your wallet and You didnt treat me. Cheh! i'm more important than your whatever bag okay! heh
sarina!: hello my love! i miss you so damn much. we have to meet up soon. get well soon dear!
esther: hahah okay !! soon soon! my laptop is still stuck in my locker! heh
j#2: thank you (:
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
