Sunday, March 13, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@11:18 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
how can someone so young take away her life just like that? well last night i just found out that i just lost someone i loved. i found out that she committed suicide by jumping off.. i cried and cried after i heard the news. i mean i would have never thought that she was even thinking of taking her life at all. she is lily.my ex cell group leader. my first cell group leader in ym wesley church. i would remember her forever. she was the first person to give me something to be responsible in church.if you would ask me what was my first responsibility in ym, i would say typing out the lyrics of songs for a small cell group worship. i wouldnt have said oh it was from cross trainers[activities group] or anything else.but just that typing of lyrics that lily made me do. although it was a very small thing. but i will remember it always. why? because it was her that made me realise that even something small can make a difference.she taught me about the bible for about a year or more. she was always there for love and support. i guess we just never realised that she needed love and someone to talk to as well.i just saw her last last sunday dancing on tage as one of the dance team members for wesley.yes it crossed my mind to say hi to her. but i didnt. i didnt want to. and now i regret it 100 percent. maybe that hi and asking how she was could have made a difference. but i will never know.from last night i realised how easy it is to lose a person you love. it made me realise that we must treasure every moment in our lives. it doesnt matter how many breaths we take in our lifes but the moments that take our breaths away. i guess its important to tell a person that you love them everyday. as the person may feel that no one loves them.and it feels good have someone say 'hey i love you' to you.i guess it makes a difference in their lives.
gahh! i just typed so much just now. and then my computer just had to shut down! omg. so pissed with it now! oh well.. not gona say what i said just now again.. tell it next time. hahah
love!
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
