Thursday, July 05, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@12:35 AM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
I'M SORRY I CANT REPLY TAGS, MY STUPID INTERNET BLOCKS IT SO I CANT EVEN READ WHO TAGS ME! BUT I'LL GET BACK TO YOU AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! (: LONG POST UP AHEAD!
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up, I need your loving hands to come and pick me up. And every night I miss you, I can just look up and know the stars are holding you, tonight.
basically, i have been busy with trying to meet friends After their school times and just hanging around town shopping while they are busy dying in school. Hahah it's been fun. (:
the feeling is sadistic awesome.
anyway, i shall start from my Birthday!
although this 17th birthday was so different from my 16th birthday party, it was so much more meaningful. last year, i threw a big party with like a dj and stuff, but this year, it was more mellow. (so to speak). it was nice different. (:
29th June,
EXAMS WERE OFFICIALLY OVER FOR EVERYONE! (:
it was like a time-to-get-drunk-and-party- time. HAHAH
so the 29th night was awesome! and at the same time, it was to celebrate tert, kat, and my birthday! Whoohoo!
Seven is an awesome club.
too bad kat, your name was spelt wrongly. HAHAH!
basically, i didnt sleep the WHOLE night and left for the airport at 7 and WAITED to board the aeroplane at 10.
seriously, coming back to singapore was the best birthday present anyone could give me. i could hardly wait! (: (: when the plane landed, i actually had tears in my eyes. i was like sucking it in so as to not look even more retarded as i already look with 5 krispy kreme boxes in my arms. i swear the aussies were amazed at us. hahah! yummy in my tummy (:
so then once i landed, i was greeted with familar smiles and faces, my family and cherished friends. (:
see my silly adorable parents and brother through the glass window?
I WAS SO HAPPY! like a little girl in the candy store, beautiful. then my relatives came over to have a steamboat dinner and to cut my cake.
and then i left to go over to the Metz, my parent's new apartment with like some school friends.WHIEE! fooled around, gambled, and basically just enjoying each other's pressence. i missed you guys like fuck!
(much more photos, sorry couldnt upload all of it. )
that was what i did on my birthday. (: what a LONGG birthday celebration i had. hahah!
so from the 1st july to now, i have just been visiting acs international and shopping in the day.
night time, going out for drinks, bumming around.
it's nice to be at home on a holiday.
feels kind of weird.
i've also been pampering myself recently. been going to massages, and manicures and pedicures. Ah, that's life.
and of course, the ever occassional fights with kane and james. reliving our childhood days, and just loving life. Smiles cannot replace it. And of course, i am three months pregnant. GAHH! HAHAH! pregnant with Fats that is. i put on FOUR kg in just three months. SERIOUSLY?! WHAT THE HELL! Argh, i'm not surprised. hahah way too fat to be healthy . but i think i should just get over myself and stop talking how fat i have become. just slap me people.
the end. (:
p.s.
in short, the only guy that still believes in true love.
forever is overated. the way to go are Flings.
(from this Fling chocolate.)
honestly, she deserves more than you.
i cant do shit properly. i hate myself.today was such a bad day.. it started out all wrong. i dont regret meeting you, but i regret what came out of it. Fuck, why cant i just stay clean once in my life. why cant i just be left alone for once. Why do i always put myself in a situation that i will bound to succumb to temptation. i cried today,because of just everything. if you ask me to choose, you already immediately know who i would choose. & it's def not you. i thought you were more than that, but then again it just shows who you are. Today, you made me feel dirty and disgusting.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
