Tuesday, March 06, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@11:30 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
today wasnt THAT awesome too.
i have been really short tempered these days i guess. so much so that i blew up in front of this person and i really regretted it.
omg, i was like killing myself over it for the whole day. i must really control what i say and do. cause i know that i actually dont mean it.. Argh okay it hurt.
i didnt speak to andrew for the whole day today; it felt weird.
and i almost blew up in front of the history teacher cause she was so unfair. she refused to give me a proper grade just because i handed up my file late. but it was BECAUSE i didnt go to school on friday! omg, i was this - close to just yelling, my day has been screwed up and her period was the last. so you could just imagine.
so well i needed to de-stress. so shumei and i went to the esplanade for our massage! (: omg, it was Soooo good. at last, some stress was released.
my mum says that im too pampered, i say im too stressed out .
you could say michael kwok made me happy today too! (: on of the upsides of school life - michael kwok. im so glad to have a friend like him! heh good good . he's a friend that can see through your facade and know what you're actually feeling. yesterday i was feeling really awful, but i went to join kwok, mark and amrit (i think?) in the canteen. and we were laughing about some stuff and he looked at me and
said : " are you okay kristi? "i replied: " huh? yeah.. of course! hahah"kwok: "ha ha yeah right. i can see through your happy facade. your eyes betray your smile, i hope you're okay. "and other words i think, i cant really remember the exact words. but his words hit me for a moment because he's the first that said it. i didnt know that he could see right through everything. he's such a darling. i even remember not being Ever able to forget him even during the december holidays last year. i went to australia for the holidays and every morning there would be this bird that would say "
KWARRK, KWARRK.." hahah! it sounded so much like kwok. gosh, talk about EVERY morning. he invaded my dreams;
definately a friend to treasure.
i wana say sorry for what i said hon, i really didnt mean to. please believe me when i said that all this was a game; it has never been one. it's taking everything in me just to forget your smell, and ive not even succeeded yet. you mean to much to me for this to be a game. ellen said something damn matured today which shocked me. even though you love the person, it doesnt mean that you have to be together. only because you know that if you stay together, things wont get any better but maybe worse; only because logically it's for the best of two people; only because you cant give what he wants; only because you love him too much to spoil the relationship.life is funny huh. it hits you when you least expect it. you are forced to grow up in a matter of mins/hours/days. you cant control it, you cant stop it, you cant prepare for it. you can only wait for it to come and handle it with care. it's situations like these that help you to grow as a person and help you learn.
though sometimes you wish you didnt have to.
i've to call glenn soon! my BFFL is going to malaysia tmr. gosh, he's skipping school! ): how unfair. take care my love ones!
on one last note, my crazy fanatic sister says that this guy is hot. gvgueihg;f?!?!
ohmygosh. GGAAAYYY?! hahah
his name is tang yu zhe
i think when he doesnt pose he looks MUCH better
you see liz! i didnt diss him That much.. (:
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
