newsflash!

i'm leaving straight after easter for melbourne to study in trinity. Oh My Gosh, that's in like SEVEN days time. unless something changes my mind in the next few days, i think i'll be 100% be going to trinity.

i dont know how to express what im feeling right now. it was a really really rash decision and i must say my parents have gone crazy. my mum applied LAST NIGHT and this MORNING they accepted me even when the term starts on MONDAY. apparently i dont need to do any placement tests or whatever because of my superb grades. AHHH! okay, i was calm for a minute then i started crying. it was like reality just slapped me in the face . at first, i was supposed to leave on thursday. how am i going to pack my whole life into a suitcase and just leave in two days?! even superman cant do it. i know i couldnt. i love my life here in singapore, ive got friends, ive got people i care for and friends that i just cant leave in a click. im not even mentally prepared for anything. the FIRST thing that ran through my mind when my mum asked me about going to trinity was JAMES! how would i tell JAMES! gosh, james lu has seriously become a really important person in my life, believe it or not. JAMES! you better be reading this you slutface! (:

i will miss SO many people.

james and iekka were so sweet. they sang me 'i'm leaving on a jet plane' song when i was breaking down in the toilet. i had to compose myself la! hahah!

i'm not only leaving singapore, im leaving behind a school that i have loved for the past two years plus. i'm leaving my comfort zone, i'm leaving everything i'm familar with, everyone that i love and have bonds with. sigh

i will miss my saturday nights
i will miss our bitching sessions, james.
i will miss our super loud laughing sessions with ellen, shumei, priss and sheryl
i will miss church people (i went to church not realising it was my last sunday at church, sigh)
i will miss my mgs group of friends!
i will miss alexx and jiaen!
i will miss michael kwok! (KWOKK! i hope you'll sing to me just once before i leave! (: you've seriously been a really big part of my life since you came to intl)
i will miss our long talks my dear ipod charger pal.
i will miss our manicure sessions aqeel!
i will miss andrew irritating me!
i will miss iekka, marcusphooi and james bullying me and scolding me even though i know they love me like crazy (:
i will miss nicpua! because he's the one guy that has not grown up yet. HAHHA! ( i love you soo so much nickkyy!)
i will miss SARINA HENG!
i will miss the sleeping in classes.
i will miss mrs tan! even though she nags so much
i will miss ACS INTERNATIONAL AND EVERYONE IN IT! if ever, if ever, you want to go to a school to belong and feel part of, ACS INTERNATIONAL is the school to go to. it has not only taught me, it has given me friends to treasure and love, it has given me something to look forward to every morning, it has given me a love that nothing can replace.
i will miss.. fuck, i'll just miss EVERYTHING.

to those who think i have forgotten to mention you, dont be alarmed! i've not even finished my list yet! (:

p.s after your reply last night, i knew i had to get away from singapore and not turn back. im not going away for you, im going away for myself. i need a change in environment. i want to be able to look at you and not feel a thing. i just want to forget you. i dont know if i'm going to tell you that i'm leaving. would that make any difference anyway..

this is by far the most rash and impulse thing i have EVER done in my life. i just hope it will work out fine. ELLEN! i hope you'll come with me! (: that will just be awesome. heh i'm just so scared to go..

♥ Love, your pathetic excuse