Saturday, March 10, 2007 ♥
Last footprint@5:57 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
i miss mgs so so muchi went back to mgs for the first time in like three years and OhMyGosh, i finally realised why i was so scared to go back. it was because if i went back, i wouldnt want to leave.
i loved it there and well i cant say that i regret leaving that school; but i miss it a hell lot.
seeing my sister's level in family night just brings back tons of memories.
like cheering our lungs out with inaudible words and the only thing that can be heard at the end is the high pitched screaming.
HAHAH! omg, a mother sitting next to me was like
"all mgs girls can scream." how true. (: i miss the girls, i miss the gossipping, i miss just the walking down the corridors of mgs. it was my family for 8 years and it's like a breathe of fresh air when i stepped into the school.
every 'gathering', we would always sing the 'pass it on' song while swaying to the song as a school, as a class. Sigh, i miss mgs so damn much! ): im glad i went back.
i wana be your lyrics, not your melodyso after that, i joined priss, jonho, eng, russell, shumei, ellen, mich, nic, juncai, james, becs, yu quan and.. i think that's all, in holland. jeric popped by for while i think? heh
anyway, it was fun (: as usual.
sigh, yesterday was the 9th - today is the 10th.
thank God the day has passed.
shumei, i hope you're right.. i cant be so damn fickled minded. i need to decide and freaking stick to the damn decision. thank you shumei!
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end i feel so horrible now, i feel as though you just stabed me 3000 times. you do have such an effect on me you know. i know i didnt make the right decision okay, but like hell. what do you expect me to do. i wana wait for you, but it's hard. especially when i dont when where i really stand with you. you can say that you love me, that i'll always be in your heart. but really, if i said that without doing shit, would you believe me? i think you'll be either living in a fantasy world or that you're just plain silly. it's painful dont you get that? esp when i said i wanted to send you off. ah whatever, i'll wait until you get back. till then, i'll really decide what i wana do. i dont wana be some fickle bitch who cant make up her damn mind. i love you, but i dont wana be together with you. because i wana be your friend more than anything else, i wana be your lyrics. i dont wana be your fucking melody. i wana mean more to you, i wana be the one you call when you're free. i wana be the one you laugh and have a good time with. i dont wana feel pressured i dont wana feel as though im clinging onto something that isnt there anymore. i want you to miss me more than you do.
i still love you iuhrtgeps.
you're the only one that can make me feel this way, i wana wait for you.
i'll fucking miss you through the holidays and after. i really hope you'll msg me when you get back, because i know that i wont be the first. you have to want me more than i do jeremy/ i wonder if that's ever possible... i'll be waiting my love.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
