Monday, September 11, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@10:25 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
today was my english prelim paper! omg, stress!
hahah actually i wasnt that nervous as i expected myself to me. (surprisingly)
i think it's all thanks to God, my mummy and of course *ahem. (:
but well,i thought the paper wasnt that hard.
*cross finger, please let me get an A.
thats the only subject i can actually aim high and get realistically an A. pathetic i know.
ah i was SO bloody scared to hand in my paper cause i REALLY wanted to do well. so like believe it or not, i prayed to God before i passed it up. prayed to him to let me know if any question lacked anything. hahah! well , he didnt give me a direct answer, so i just assume that everything would be fine (:
okay well i guess all you people are here to read about why i just suddenly lashed out at allison today. i had my reasons and i dont think i was over-reacting. actually many people said i should have done more. but i mean, fuck it. it is a waste of my time.
seriouslymy reasons:
allison 'back-stabbed' me while we were like okay. i mean like seriously, what the hell is her problem?! i did nothing to her, and in fact i was damn nice to her. and she like just bitched about me behind my back?! what kind of person is this huh?
i didnt just hear from one person, but in fact from many. so i didnt base my judgement on her just like that.
she said that
"kristi may look nice and all, but actually she's not all that seems" ?!
im sorry but WHAT!? i didnt do anything to you, and like you just come and say stuff about me like that?! im sorry but what the hell is your problem?! i actually think that she's just describing herself, but just replacing my name for her. i really thought that she was all that seems, a nice innocent girl, always hyped up and like you know, no such backstabbing bitch behind her facade. but well, it just goes to show that i really (until now) cant read people. it's really disappointing to a certain extent. but im just glad that i got to know the 'real' allison.
oh and another thing about the "it almost went in" thing. well, im sorry but i wont stoop as low as you to reveal all those scandels you have with god knows who in school. and just to defend myself, the THING did not even go close. but i mean, what the hell its not even your business. i mean if you want to destroy my reputation then so be it. cause honestly, i dont care what you make people think. but just to make it clear, all you say is just utter bullshit. and LETS SAY it did almost went in, its none of your fcking business if its between two people in a relationship, its not like i randomly make out with someone in the handicap toilet... im sure that you have done more than i can ever say (i dont have to explain more, im sure the whole school already knows about your sex scandels), but if you want to be the slut of the school, then so be it. im sorry but dont drag me down as your partner. (:
in conclusion;im not saying this to get you all to hate her as well. but im saying all this to just tell you why i lashed out at her today in the canteen. i didnt scream at her, i didnt lay a finger on her, i didnt do anything 'morally' wrong. my main reason for approaching her was to tell her that i am aware that she has been "bitching" about me behind my back and i am not happy about it. but if she wants to bitch more, then be my guest. i really cant be bothered anymore. i mean seriously my prelims are now, and soon my end of years. i dont have time for this kind of shit anymore. if this was during the middle of this year, then maybe it would be different. but oh well, now i just have no comments about you allison.
so like yeah. good bye. (:
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
