Tuesday, October 18, 2005 ♥
Last footprint@8:51 PM
Dear diary,
I'm falling in love..
today was such a crap day. bleah. oh wells, life cant get any worse right? i mean seriously, gosh! i cant wait for the holidays, so i can finally get over you. cause to me, i cant get over you when im seeing you EVER SINGLE FUCKING DAY.
gahh. dont know why, today i felt damm fucking frustrated.
honestly, i dont have any idea why you were frustrated or pissed with me in the first place. i didnt do anything. it was YOU who did me wrong. you know its true okay. but like i decided to like just not mind it, cause seriously, i didnt really want to end of the day badly, and so i only said a few words, which was that you should have at least had the curtosy to inform me that you werent going to come, and i wouldnt have been like mad of whatever. i mean, YEAH!. but you didnt. and well, i didnt even say anyhting about it okay. but then you got pissed with me. and like if you dont notice, it was YOU who got 'irritated' with me first. i strangled your neck cause i was pissed, and i was, but i let it slide. and if you got pissed with me because of that, then well, i would love to remind you that you do that to me every single day. so whats the difference?. sigh. day by day, i see a different side of you.and i dont like it.
you know, you have no right to treat people like crap. even if they dont mean anything to you, you should at least respect them because they are people with feelings, and the things you do to them are just not.. fair and just.i mean who are you? you are not God or whatsoever, you are a human being as well okay.
and by the way, i cried not because of what jonho said to me, but because of you. it has always been about you and you only.
hahah i cant believe that i even made a present for your birthday okay.i made it. sighh.. i guess im not gona have to give it to you anymore. its not worth it. because, you wouldnt even be moved by it.
ah fuck. i had enough of this shit and all okay. even though i love you and all, i had enough. you have actually managed to push me away and hurt me so much that i have actually given up on you. so congrats, you did it, im never going to fall for you again because i will always remember the hurt you have caused me and all. so congrats, you have accomplished what you wanted my sweet love.
you were everything to me, but thats in the past, and its going to stay there, forever.
♥ Love, your pathetic excuse
